Turning 2 at 78

          There is the side of John that is quick to swear and use the 'F' word or drop a string of words that only sailors would use during a gale losing the race by a length of a boat, in a tight race, at the end of the season.  There is also the side of John that to this day will stand and wait for a woman to walk first in a door or take his cap off once he walks inside a building.  The gentleman that will greet a woman and say, "Good Morning, dear, how are you doing today?" or "You look great today".   The man that will say good bye to his gang at the Senior Center like they have been his best friends for a life time.   I have notice that they all want to be the first to tell John that I have arrived to pick him up.  John's favorite saying is, "those are nice people" and he looks at the world pretty much with that attitude.


             That same person is becoming a two year old in so many compartment of his life.  He is a two year old that needs reminding about using the bathroom.  He need to be reminded that he has to sit longer and try harder.  He is embarrassed about the mess he creates in a bathroom, to his clothes,  the shower and the lack of knowing what to do about it.  There is a John that is sad about how life is going and say, "SHHHH, SHHH".  There is a John that does not know how to make it better.  A man that forgets which bathroom is his, how long it takes to get there and how important it is to be able to explain what his needs are.

               I always feel relieved after tucking John in bed and knowing that he is all clean and safe.  I fear that timing could go wrong and all of this could happen while he is at the Senior Center and the embarrassment to John would be overwhelming.